new beginning...

there is hope.. is it ?

2008 started wonderfully excellent for me. the best since at least a decade ago. life is good. love is good. logic and magic coincide. am flying high, god, please don't let me fall !

I fell in love…

Yes, very common but not common for me. I like people, I don’t love people ! How can a person with a heart made of the hardest substance, can fall in love ? I try to reason with my own logic – attempt failed. So I start asking S, how did he make me fall for him. Answer was - connection, chemistry… hmmm, maybe I lost the definition of love that I lost what in the world is he talking about. ~

Ok, a bit of history.. the last I fell for someone was a decade ago. It didn’t work out, so I start flirting. Heart close until further notice. Set myself a very high criteria so I will not fall again. A very subtle way of vengeance. Hide myself inside myself. Hide in my destiny – the entertainment industry, where pretending is a common. So I can pretend and not let any soul know who I really was or am.

A decade. A decade and S changed me in a second ! hmmmmm… Love the way he loves me. Love everything about him. And I learn to love myself now. Oh well, that is a person in love talking… Love his answer to a certain question – “I am the most qualified !”.. Smart !

Maybe I think I am too smart so I needed somebody smarter. And to think that I can’t get any smarter guy in a decade, - was it something wrong with me or something wrong with the general male species ?... I wonder..

My dearest darling S, i love u so very much, i believe u do love me too. So pls God, begging U, i think i deserve my happiness this time around..

So, as for now, two months later, I have elevated from cloud nine to cloud ninety-nine :) This is going two ways – either I am gonna be the happily ever after fairy tale princess or I am gonna crash boom bang and die !

Will update :)


there is hope, is it..................????

c'est la vie ! cheers :)